Alone...

Sitting up in my room I can see that the dark night looks so coldness when the light of the only slowly droopy sun lands in the bit of land that our eyes can reach... Bringing up with it this deepness sadness and cold from my soul.

I can feel it...

I can feel this coldness taking over me...

My wings are cold and frozen...

I can't barely move them to fly away from this lonely and dark place...

I feel my body disobeying my own commands like he's tired of living my own life...

My heart is so sour... and drowning into this sadness tears which refuses to stay in my eyes.
So like that they drain over my skin, making my pain visible...

Eroded by the time I'm going on and on living an unconscious mode of life regretting every mistake and maybe made me hurt others around me.
Horrified and hurt by life which sometimes i just I would like to isolate myself in a small world where nothing matter for anyone...

Where I could start again...
From the very beginning...
Without knowing no one, without being known by no one and just start a normal life, correcting every mistake I made along my life and arranging a better future where my believes were different, the same as my thoughts...

But I seem to be trapped here, where I suffer alone in this dark room. Where every one from the outside can just understand but can not actually feel my pain.
I wish I could change and taste freedom and not just the agony of this room in my heart where even if try hard I always seem to end up here...
With myself....
Alone....